Things don't look good...

no, they don't. you try to do everything according to the rules and it still doesn't seem to want to work out. my visa expires at the end of the month and i don't know whether it'll get renewed or not.

they try to sell us that free world thing, that global village thing, but really, i don't buy it. not for everybody.

it would be so much easier to just be illegal. i don't want it, though. but i understand why so many people do.

i haven't have a good night sleep in weeks, maybe months. i can't remember. in early april, i woke up in the middle of the night after a nightmare, and sitting up on the bed i was suddenly convinced that i had missed the immigration deadline. i couldn't think straight i suppose and mixed up the order of the months on the calendar and for some reason i was convinced that may came before april. it took me about 20 minutes to realize my mistake. but those 20 minutes it really wasn't much fun.

there's nothing else i can really think about because a lot of things depend on that. what the point of buying an american computer if i have to return to europe in a couple of months? what the point of looking for a new place? etc.

you apply for jobs you're more than qualified to do but they don't want to hire you because they don't want to sponsor you for a visa. it doesn't matter that you are willing to take care of everything and pay all the legal bills.

i don't know...